Banana Schumtz, Valrhona chocolate mousse and Cocoa nib cookie crumble

After my grandmother passed me a box of tiny glasses with little stems, I became intrigued with the idea of composing desserts in them. From Wikipedia:

A verrine is a confection, originally from France, made by layering ingredients in a small glass. It can be either sweet or savoury, making a dessert or snack.[1]

The top layer was crumbled very chocolate cookies I made previously.

The mousse layer was Pierre Herme’s Chocolate mousse. Delightfully airy yet dense? As with all his recipes, it was perfect.

The base was a layer of banana schmutz from Sherry Yard’s Desserts by the Yard. I loved this. I followed the recipe but did not blend the bananas as they mushed up on their own after cooking. I also added more lemon juice, at least a tablespoon or juice from half a lemon. This cuts the sweetness of the sugar and the bananas and it made the schmutz amazingly yellow as I guess it prevented the bananas from oxidising.

Chocolate Mousse
adapted from Chocolate Desserts by Pierre Hermé
Serves 4

6 oz bittersweet chocolate
1/3 C whole milk
1 egg yolk
4 egg whites
2 T sugar

Chop chocolate into small pieces and place in a bowl large enough to contain all of the ingredients and accommodate the folding process. Place the bowl over a bain marie or a simmering water bath. Make sure the bowl is not touching the water and the water is kept to a simmer. Take off the heat when the chocolate is melted.

Gently bring the milk to a boil. Pour over the melted chocolate and slowly whisk. Add the egg yolk and whisk until fully incorporated.

Whip eggs whites on medium speed until they reach a soft peak. Increase to medium high and gradually add sugar in a slow steady stream until egg whites are firm and glossy. The chocolate mixture should be cooled by the time the egg whites are ready.

Add 1/3 of whites to chocolate mixture and gently whisk to combine and lighten the chocolate mixture. Switch to a large rubber spatula and gently fold in remaining 2/3 egg whites until there are no streaks. Pour into individual servings or a large bowl. Chill for about 1 hour.

The texture of this mousse is lighter if served after the brief chilling. However, you can cover and store in the refrigerator up to 2 days. The texture will be much more dense.

Banana Schmutz
(adapted from Sherry Yard’s Dessert by the Yard)

3 Tbsp. unsalted butter
4 Tbsp. dark brown sugar
pinch salt
3 very ripe bananas sliced into 1/2 inch chunks
2 tsp. lemon juice

In a large pan over medium heat, melt butter, once it begins to brown, add the sugar and salt and stir until bubbly and melted. Add bananas and stir until they have softened and the caramel becomes very liquid and you can smell the bananas. Remove from heat. Pour into a food processor or blender, add lemon juice and process until smooth.

Travelling with baby

Travelling with baby is really a whole different experience all together! The way we usually travel is to get to the destination than plan our next few days and book tours or rent a car depending on which is more feasible at the destination. With the baby, we did a lot less and spent more days doing almost nothing. Time slowed to a crawl and we felt like we were really holidaying rather than trying to squeeze in an activity every single minute.

Hana is 4 months and 3 weeks and she’s at a perfect age to travel. She’s solely breastfed and she’s more independant now. She can play by herself for longer periods and this means that she can lie down on a couch during meals at the hotel and more or less play with her toys till we finish our meal. Of course being in Thailand, half the time she was carried around by the waitresses. The Thais are among the most warm and hospitable in Asia. They love babies! A lot! Hana received so much attention.

I brought a few toys which kept Hana entertained.

A crinkly cloth book which makes a lot of noise.

I bought these set of plastic toy links from kiddy palace. They cost S$4.90 per pack and it contains about 15 links. She really enjoyed this toy, banging it around, looping it around her wrists and gumming at them. When she got bored of playing with them on her own, I jiggled it around and played tug of war with her. It seemes to offer her unlimited play oppurtunities, she was never tired of them.

I also brought a little flat  soft bear which she liked to hug and her hand and feet rattles. She enjoyed her hand and feet rattles in KL.

But I think she’s outgrown them. After some failed attempts at gnawing off the rattles, she lost interest in them.

This is how Hana goes diaper free at home. On a rubber mat with a flat prefold under her. Here she’s wearing a purple Fuzzi Bunz fitted cloth diaper for modesty sake! When we travel, I bring along a special disposable plastic sheet which is soft and cottonny on one side and plastic on the other. Its waterproof in case of leaks. I give her diaper free time when in the hotel room right after a diaper change and sometimes she naps on it as well. One sheet lasts me 2-3 days as I make sure I potty her before I put her on the sheet so she doesn’t wet.

EC-ing on holiday just meant giving her potty breaks when we were in the room. I caught a cold after snorkelling on the 3rd day of the holiday so I kind of gave up the EC-ing. However something interesting has happened these past few days. She’s been signalling when she wants to use the potty by making whimpering noises. So I have successfully caught more than the post nap pees! We’ve been having pretty good days, and I’m trying out the training pants in the afternoon. During the mornings, she has a volley of pees and poos so I always use diaper back up. But things slow down during the afternoon and she’s in her training pants during her afternoon nap. I catch a pee after the nap then another a little later as she squirms after a feed. We’ve had one or two accidents so far but then again I always put her on the rubber mat when I put her down so clean up is easy. She never ever pees on me so my clothes always remain dry. I won’t pretend that EC is really easy. It does take effort but it does get easier over time. I’ve been doing EC part time since birth but Hana only caught on proper around 3 months. She pees on cue at about that time but there are still lapses and accidents in between. Its become part of our routine so I’ll still continue to do it. It just seems natural and right. Each time I get a full potty and empty it into the toilet bowl, I feel a wierd sense of achievement, like I understood her and we had a connection. After all the months of EC-ing, its finally clicked, I sort of know when she’s got to go and she sort of tries to let me know too. Things are supposed to get better and better..? I guess we’ll see how it goes! I’ve completely abandoned my night time EC cos I just can’t get myself to get out of bed even though Hana signals and signals by squirming like mad if she has to poo. I also have not done EC out of the home or gone diaper free out of the home. So I guess its still a long journey ahead till we’re completely diaper free.

Hana in the sarong carrier at the airport. We decided to forgo the pram and carried her everywhere we went. She was in the sarong when she was with me and in her Daddy’s arms when she wasn’t. We also brought a foldable changing mat and put her down on couches or sofas for naps when we were at restaurants or by the pool or beach.

We also brought lots of bibs because she’s at a drooling stage yet hates to have her chin mopped all the time. With the bib she loves to play and nibble on it so its kind of a self cleaning device. We also bought loads of mosquito patches as with all tropical jungly areas, there were loads of mosquitoes in Krabi. You can see the blue patch on her romper. Sometimes H would feel she needs more “protection” and she would have up to 3 patches stuck onto her.

We never left the room without her sun hat and sunblock too.

We stayed at the Amari Vogue which we booked thru asiarooms. The resort is beautiful but for the price we paid, we felt that we stayed in better rooms for much less. Another minus point was the staff hardly spoke English so it was a challenge communicating our needs. We asked for a pot of brewed coffee to our room and was brought packets of instant coffee instead. When we asked for an international adaptor, we were brought an internet cable. The room also had a peeling paint on the wall and the parquet floor was quite badly scratched. But the rooms were generally very clean. There was a turn down service and we received small cakes daily. These were really delicious and included local and international cakes. We had a fabulous orange mousse in little shot glasses on evening which H and I fought over. The pools and the landscaping were fabulous. There are two restaurants in the resort and the Thai food in the Lotus restaurant was ok but wasn’t the best. The pad thai and fried rice was sooo sweet which was strange. Bellini’s their Italian restaurant is fabulous, its by the beach so we enjoyed the sunsets over dinners every evening.

The resort is located on the rather remote Tub Kaek beach which is 30 mins from the busy tourist city of Aonang. While the peace and quiet was really heavenly, the distance and expensive taxi fares made us feel rather stuck on the resort. Taxi two way is S$50 which is really ridiculous. You can book a driver for the same amount the entire day in Bali and probably a number of days in India. I didn’t expect Krabi to be so expensive and so crowded. I was expecting a quiet getaway like Koh Samui but Krabi is very very touristy and spoilt by the strength of European currencies. The locals are not interested in bargaining with you at all! Even a ride on the long tailed boat shown above to the nearby islands would cost about S$80. On a rickety boat!

We stayed a lot on the resort and had most of our meals there. We watched the sun rise and the sun set on many walks. We also had a good massage at a beach hut just down the beach from the resort. I had a facial on the last day at the resort spa which is lovely and reasonably priced.

The weather was hot with a few late afternoon showers. We downed lots of iced lattes which were plentiful along cafes along Ao Nang beach.

Hana is a great travel baby, I can’t wait for more trips!

I’ll be away!

We’ll be going away for a couple of days to enjoy the sun and the sea.

With a baby, things are logistically, let’s just say more interesting. I feel like I’m packing the whole house, but that can’t possibly be true. Gone are the days when I live in the same pair for jeans I wore on the airplane and just throw a couple of things into a suitcase. With Hana, I have to count the number of outfts I bring for her and the thing I completely detest, lugging a load of disposable diapers! I’m looking on the bright side and hoping to practice EC while travelling since we will be spending loads of time on the sand and in the sea. Some EC-ers say that vacations are the best time to practice EC as there’s lots of time to connect and bond with baby in a relaxed manner. I guess we’ll see how it goes!

In terms of the EC progress, at 4 months and 2 weeks, we’re kind of at a plateau. I’m catching one to two poops a day, one first thing in the morning and the other usually right after a feed when she signals by latching and unlatching during feeds. She always smiles and laughs after we use the potty so it is quite fun. The pees are a little trickier and I usually catch them post naps. Even then, I’m catching about two to three per day. Even with what sounds like a measly few catches, I’m still managing to keep her diaper free for about 3 hours per day and saving quite a bit on washing those diapers. Especially those poopy ones! Will update on EC-ing while travelling when I come back!

Very chocolate birthday cookies

 

These cookies were fabulous. I really loved them. They’re everything I love in a double chocolate chip cookie. Chunks of deep dark chocolate, midnight dark from the cocoa and deliciously crunchy from the cocoa nibs. They’re so crunchy and chocolatey, I think these definitely tops my list. They were so much better than the World Peace Cookies I made previously. While big on chocolate flavour, my world peace cookies were chewy and not crunchy at all despite descriptions that they were, and I made them twice thinking I got the recipe wrong! This was my first time using cocoa nibs and was surprised at how bitter they were. But they were super in these cookies, they had the texture of coffee beans but the bitterness of chocolate. Combined with the sugar in the cookie and the sweetness of the chocolate chunks, they were perfect.

Cacao Nibs are perfectly roasted cocoa beans separated from their husks and broken into small bits. They are the essence of chocolate. Nibs add crunchiness and subtle chocolate flavor to baked goods and savory dishes. They make a great substitute for roasted nuts or chocolate chips, without added sweetness

I made these for a special little boy’s first birthday. Not for the little kid though, these are strictly adult cookies. They were for the tired mother, who went thru a lot from labor to raising the little kiddo. Enjoy!

 

Very Chocolate Cookies
Makes about 48 little cookies
From Chocolate & Zucchini: Daily Adventures in a Parisian Kitchen By Clotilde Dusoulier

1 cup all-purpose flour
¼ cup (25 g) unsweetened Dutch-process cocoa powder
½ teaspoon baking soda
5 ounces (140 g) bittersweet or semisweet chocolate, chopped in chip-sized chunks
¼ cup (30 g) cocoa nibs
½ cup, plus 1 tablespoon (125 g) unsalted butter, at room temperature
½ cup (100 g) (packed) light brown sugar
¼ teaspoon sea salt
1 teaspoon vanilla

Preheat the oven to 350F (180C) and line a baking sheet with parchment paper or silicone baking mat.

1. In a small bowl, sift both flours, cocoa powder and baking soda together.

2. In a clean, dry bowl set over a pan of simmering water (or in a microwave), melt half of the chocolate (2½ oz, 70g), then let cool to room temperature. Mix the other half of the chocolate chunks a bowl with the cocoa nibs.

3. Beat the butter with a standing electric mixer, or by hand, just until smooth. Beat in the sugar, salt and vanilla or chocolate extract.

4. By hand, stir in the melted chocolate, then the flour-cocoa mixture. Then finally the chocolate chunks and nibs.

5. Scoop the dough into rounded teaspoons and place evenly-spaced on the prepared baking sheet. bake for 10-12 minutes or until the cookies take on a slightly dry sheen to the top. They may feel soft, but don’t worry; they’re firm up just fine when cool.

My 4 month old

As someone’s wise mother said, bringing up a child is a marathon and not a 100m race. The first few years are crucial in terms of brain development and in no other period of the child’s life would the brain be growing in terms of size and connections. But there are all the other crucial periods where values and morals are imbedded and the end result is a confident, morally upright functional adult.

As much as I enjoy being at home, there will come a time where I will have to return to work. I’m grateful that my maternity leave has been extended and I am going back to work part time. This works out to Hana being 7.5 months when I return to work full time. Hopefully I would be able to continue exclusive breast feeding till then and beyond!

While I don’t think I can give up my job, as financially we are unable to afford it and personally I don’t think I can be a stay at home mom. I just can’t! As much as I love my baby, I’m getting bored and restless and I miss seeing patients. I really do. Of course I don’t miss the yucky hospital food and the night calls and all the weekends at work. But I do miss interaction with patients, diagnostic dilemmas, meeting up with friends and colleagues at work, studying for my exams..

I promised myself I would use this time off work to study for the last part of my exams. So I will and I should. I’m aiming for October this year or February next year. I guess I should feel ready to fork out 4-5 months salary for an exam where the pass rate is 15-20%. I am getting old after all. I don’t feel ready but I think I never will so I guess I should push myself a little and just jump in and do it!

 

More EC insights

We discussed common times for pottytunities in the last EC post. Let’s talk about the misses and the common times that you may have a miss. I’m currently reading the book shown above and it is so interesting as it covers 3 EC tracks, full time, part time and occasional EC. I think I fall into the part time and sometimes occasional EC-er category especially when life gets busy!

I found this list in the book really really true. I tend to miss pees/poops when

-I’m preparing a meal

-when something else catches my attention eg. when I’m chatting on the phone! Though I hang up the phone sometimes to attend to her especially if its with a friend who knows I EC.

-when she wakes up from a nap and I’m not there

-when she’s in a reclined position like on the bed and I’m not around

-right after a miss! these are called warning pees when the baby releases a little bit. I’ve learned not to count this as a miss as there’s usually a full pee if I potty her straight away.

-when she’s on her belly. Apparently the pressure on her bladder makes her go more easily. This is how I experienced being peed on for the first time, when she was on her belly on my belly as I lay on the bed. Otherwise I have never ever been peed on, babies instinctively do not pee on people.

-when others are taking care of her.

Currently I’m trying to EC away from home when I go to family/friend’s homes by bringing her to the toilet when I’m there. So far, I’ve had zero catches! I don’t think she’s comfortable enough to go when she’s in an unfamiliar place. I guess it’ll take more practice. I find that I’m reaching for the diposables pretty often when I’m out and about alone as sometimes I don’t feel like bringing a huge bag around. Sometimes I feel like going out and not worry about diaper changes so I just put her in a disposable. Its perfectly ok to practice EC with diaposables, just like a baby can switch from breast to bottle easily (expressed breastmilk in a bottle for Hana), a baby can switch from cloth to disposie easily and still be able to EC. BUT, I find that when my baby is in diposables a lot, she tends to regress a little and it takes a bit of time staying home in cloth before I start catching again. I’m not sure if its because being in disposables equates to me being busier and therefore less in tune to her needs or its the diaposables “stay dry” effect itself that makes it harder to EC in them.

I’ve wanted to try night time EC but I think its impossible! I value my sleep too much and I think a well rested mummy is a happier and better mummy. I’m lucky to have easy nights since Hana was a week old. She sleeps really well and since we cosleep, night feeds are hardly a bother. She feeds about once or twice at night and I don’t really feel awakened or disturbed by the night feeds. Since I decided to EC at night, I’m slightly more awake than I usually am when she fusses or stirs at night. I change her diaper and she usually pees when I open her diaper. So she does stir when her bladder is full. But, peeing on opening the diaper and holding her over the potty are two very different things! I can’t hold her over a potty as putting her in an upright position will wake her up. And getting up from bed is also a huge challenge for me. I can’t think of a possible solution yet. I guess options are nursing while holding over a potty, that doesn’t wake the baby but it’ll definitely wake me! The other option is perhaps her staying dry throughout the night as she matures.. hopefully.

More baby books from Amazon

I bought 15 books from Amazon, all board book sets for S$108 and they arrived promptly 2 weeks later. I’m quite pleased with them and they’re soooo much cheaper than Kinokuniya or Borders.

I bought 8 curious george books.

Curious George is quite curious. The illustrations have a vintage feel to it. This series is one of those classic children’s books.

I really really enjoyed this Leslie Patricelli box set which includes yummy yucky, no, no, yes, yes and Big, little.

I liked saying yummy and yucky a million times.

Peaches and Cream Tart

The tart after I very messily cut it. I also forgot to remove the base of the baking tin before filling the tart and then was too afraid to do so in case it broke..

I made a nutella tart recently and had some left over pastry left which I froze. A step by step tutorial of the crust here.

I then filled it with creme patissiere from Gordon Ramsay’s Just Desserts:

350ml whole milk
150ml double cream
75g caster sugar
1 vanilla pod, split, seeds extracted
1 large egg
3 large yolks
40g cornflour

Put the milk and cream in a heavy-based saucepan along with 1 tblsp of the sugar, the vanilla seeds (you can also use natural vanilla extract) and the empty pod. Slowly bring to the boil.

In the meantime, beat the egg, egg yolks and sugar until pale and creamy. Sift a third of the cornflour into the egg mixture and beat until smooth. Repeat two more times with the rest of the cornflour.

When the milk is on the point of boiling, slowly pour a third onto the egg mixture while beating continuously. Gradually pour in the rest of the milk, whisking all the time. Take out the vanilla pod.

Return the milk and egg mixture to the heat. Simmer for 2-3 minutes, whisking all the time, until thick and smooth. Pour into a bowl, cover and cool until needed.

I then topped it with sliced tinned peaches (its what I had at hand), though fresh fruit would be great!

I then melted butter in a pan and sauteed sliced almonds then drained them on a kitchen towel. Scatter over tart and dust generously with icing sugar.

This is my spontaneous ”I really need to bring a dessert” somewhere dessert. I usually have leftover pastry somewhere in the freezer and while the crust bakes, i make the filling of the tart. If you don’t have fruit, it’ll be a plain custard tart and you’re still good to go!

Training pants

I wasn’t sure how to answer the salesgirl’s question- how old is the child? when I went out to buy these bright bots training pants. I just vaguely answered, small..

Strangely I bought a size S for Hana which is meant to fit a 12 kg child and it has an incredibly tiny waist. Its probably made for toddlers who are more elongated than a pot bellied 4 month old. I hope she won’t outgrow it too soon or perhaps it’ll stretch in the wash..

I’ll give these pants a go tomorrow and keep you posted.

Hana is going to be 4 months this week and I’ve been starting to initiate some measures that will hopefully ease the transition from having me at home all the time and having me home only part of the time. I’m going to start work part time in March so I still have some time with her and get her adjusted.

One of my concerns when I start work was obviously if all my EC efforts would have gone to waste unless I impose pottying my baby to the caregiver. After reading the book, I’ve decided to follow the advice in the book which would be not to impose EC on the caregiver. This is because you want whoever who brings your baby to the potty to feel happy to do so rather than obliged. They have to believe that EC works and makes the baby happy.

I continued to potty my baby as usual without any pressure. My helper walked in while we were using the potty and the baby had just pooped. She was really interested in how I managed to do it, so I explained that I pottied her after a feed and a sign would be fussing at the breast or bottle. After more pees and poops and when my helper appeared interested, I added in more info on prime times like after naps etc.

Even if my helper doesn’t potty my baby regularly while I’m away, its fine by me because I know that my baby has reached a stage where she associates going to the toilet with the cue sound and the way I carry her over the potty. There’ll still be potty-tunities when I’m around and I always keep my mind on the long term goal, to have a strong bond with my child and as a bonus, toilet independence! Its not always easy especially on days where there seems to be a lot of misses or zero catches, but I don’t count the misses or accidents as something bad but as an oppurtunity to sign “potty” and make the “psss” sound to reinforce the cues. This makes the baby associate releasing his sphincters with the cues. Just don’t pressure yourself or the baby and things will remain light hearted and fun. Hana always smiles and laughs at the “potty” sign and the psss sound like its the funniest thing in the world!

Some EC thoughts.

A question I ask myself is why I practice EC or elimination communication. It sounds like a complicated phrase but it simply means pottying the baby. It also sounds like a lot of work, a huge commitment and something impossible for a busy working mom to do. Its actually much much simpler than what some may think. You don’t need a lot of time and you don’t need to use cloth diapers contrary to popular belief. Any baby can be cued to poo and pee in the potty and anyone can do it, not just mom but any dedicated caregiver. The reason I did initially was that is sounded possible and it was a challenge. I was also doubting if it actually works so i really wanted to see it for myself. As I continued doing it, I did it because I was simply amazed that it actually works! Also after a while of practicing EC, I started feeling guilty if I didn’t offer her the option of a potty break as she’s entirely dependant on me and I felt like she was secretly hoping I’ll bring her to the potty and she didn’t want to do it in her diaper.

After reading the book above which is a really enjoyable read and highly recommended, here is my take on the 4 tools for diaper freedom

1. Timing

This is how I catch most of the pees and poos. I’m not getting consistent signs from my baby yet unlike other EC babies her age. I think its because I don’t do it full time, I don’t do it when I’m tired, when we go out and at night. Some days I don’t do it at all! So I rely a lot on timing when I actually do it.

These are the times that are prime for EC

-first thing in the morning

-after a nap

-after a feed

-at “transition times” meaning on transferring in and out of the sling or as soon as you reach home if you’re out or if you’re changing the baby

-anytime you feel that the baby has to pee

-when you have to go yourself!

My catches have been mostly in the morning and after naps. The more I offer the more I catch. But I usually have very low expectations of myself, I’ll catch a morning pee and feel really happy about it. If I don’t offer anymore cos I’m to lazy the rest of the day its fine with me.

2. Baby body language and sign

I imagine the day my baby will actually crawl to the potty and use it herself or tug at her training pants. Now its still pretty tough. I must admit my baby is not consistently signing and I’m usually not paying as much attention as I should be sometimes. But she has been showing her potty sign only as soon as I notice it, its too late! Sometimes she shows it but there’s no pee. There are times when she protests when I bring her to the potty so thats a clear “no” signal which I respect. If she squirms or verbally protest when I carry her to the potty I will not potty her at all. I respect her “no” and her no is consistent, there’s nothing to catch is she refuses the potty.

3. Intuition

If you carry your baby a lot and learn her cues and body language, your “potty radar” actually tingles when its time the baby needs to go. When you have the thought its usually right, she does need to go. The question is how often you react to the thought of pottying. I usually get the thought at the most inconvenient times like when I’m just about to start a meal!

4. Cueing the baby

This is a cue sound you make as you potty as a signal for the baby to go eg psss or ssshhh. You do it even with misses so the baby associates releasing with the sounds.

I still have a looooooooooooong way to go before I’ll dare bring her out without her diapers or sleep with her diaper free. I’m still not that keen on waking up at night to potty her but I’ve thought of trying since H is away currently, I won’t be interrupting his sleep. Its apparently easier to read a baby’s cues at night. I think I need to buy a couple of training pants for her as I realize its hard to pull off a diaper without putting her down and I still have to rediaper her lying down which she doesn’t fancy when she’s awake and bouncing up and down. She’s at a stage where she thinks lying down is only for newborns!